Fibro Friday: Things I Do Now Because of Fibro~7/3/2020

Good hello, friends! Happy Friday! Oops! In the last three days I have become obsessed with Tik Tok. I’m already planning a-plenty of content that I want to post. So look out because I’m about to go off over there.

Today’s post is for all the things I do because of fibromyalgia.

I keep my hair short. Because of Covid-19 and avoiding nonessential services like going to get my hair this is the only time my hair has gotten passed my shoulders in three years. My hair, she THICC like I’ve only met a few other people with hair as thick as mine. My hands and arms tend to hurt from styling and washing when my hair gets beyond a certain point. So length plus thick equals hard times for Sarah’s hair and pain. I like to pretend right now that it’s not an issue by clipping it back. Before Covid-19 I would get so desperate that I would call my hairdresser for an emergency cut the same day.

I wear sunglasses a lot, even indoors sometimes. My eyes are very light sensitive. Even the amount of light coming through my windows right now as I write this with the curtains pulled, is a little too much. I joke that I’m a vampire because it’s bad. I have before also decided to not go to the grocery store because it was too sunny out.

I spend a lot of time in my room. This may sound fine to some because who is living back with their parents after graduating post-secondary and having a hell of a time getting their life off the ground, oh and now I, of course, have fibro, too. I spend a lot of time laying in bed because that’s the most comfortable position to ease my pain, I have a heating pad I use on that said bed that I use year round. I have a sensitivity to sound too. There’s times where I legit can’t be around my family because it’s too loud. My brother lifting weights in the basement, for example, my room is the only place far enough that I won’t get a headache or migraine.

Having less money. I have to spend a lot of money because of my disability. I already mentioned heating pads (I own 3 regular size and 2 good for travel). I have a decent drug plan but I still have to spend a lot on medicine. I get this IV treatment that makes me feel better, weekly and mediation that I take daily. I also buy a lot of pain relief products. Icy Hot patches, Medstik, Tiger Balm, just to name a few. That adds up. I’m only now finally getting a handle on my credit card after my collapsed lung a year ago (happy anniversary to me).  Click this if you want to read what happened Fibro Friday: My Medical Emergency. Spending money on take out because I’m in too much pain to make food. Or I have even skipped a meal or two because of my pain. I know these aren’t healthy ways to do things and I’m working hard on changing things since I can’t support with food.

I repeat myself a lot. I have brain fog and sure, it’s not as bad as it was when I was on a certain mediation that I even had a hard time putting sentences together. I still have my moments and sometimes repeat things to people that I forget I already said to said people.

As always, thanks for reading!

Sarah<3<3

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Americanah by Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie: Book Review

Good hello, friends! Happy Thursday! I’ve been really looking forward to reviewing this, but my Review Shelf on my book cart is very scarce now. I’ve been reading so many library books (#poor) this year so I don’t have too many physical copies.

My Lame Synopsis: Ifemelu and Obinze get together when they’re younger and go to study at university. However, during this time, which is early 2000s Nigeria becomes a place where Ifemelu feels less safe. She decides to study in the US.  Goodreads

 

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My Rating: 5 out of 5 stars

I definitely have forgotten how talented Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie is with words. She created this balance of romance, politics, race, and nationality. She allowed me to discover Nigeria in a new, very real way. Other than a spot on the world map that I memorized in school. Adichie sparked an interest in me to discover more about Nigeria and American history. I felt like I learned so much, especially about Africanness, becoming aware of racism and the like. Ifemelu, Obinze and Dike were my favourite characters. They were complex, imperfect, and forced to make hard decisions.

I absolutely loved that Ifemelu had a blog. I think a blog gives freedoms that allowed Ifemelu to explore her new world with her unique perspective. After the first or so week of protests Adichie posted on Instagram some of the blog posts that were within Americanah, which had me like “YES! That’s right this is still relevant!” She was bold with her blog and refused to make it into something that would be more comfortable for white people to read.

As always, thanks for reading!

Sarah<3<3

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June Wrap Up ~2020

Good hello, friends! Happy Wednesday! Last year, I pretty much only read queer books for June and this year I’m forcing to fit in a queer book before midnight on June 30th. I blame my two-week reading slump. July may not Pride month, but anytime of the year is great to read diversely, right?? I didn’t finish it, but I got half through and I’ll finish it later today so that’s fine.

Let’s just jump into it!



  1. Daughter of Smoke and Bone by Laini Taylor 

  2. The Circle by Dave Eggers 

  3. Rich People Problems by Kevin Kwan 

  4. This Fallen Prey by Kelley Armstrong

  5. Moon of The Crusted Snow by Waubgeshig Rice

  6. Jane Eyre by Charlotte Bronte

  7. We Were Eight Years in Power by Ta-Nehisi Coates


As always, thanks for reading!

Sarah<3<3

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Shuri Issues 1-3 by Nnedi Okorafor: Comics Review

Good hello, friends! Happy Tuesday! Today is interesting because my internet isn’t working on my desktop so good thing I have data to get this done! As you may have noticed today review is a bit different because I’m reviewing 3 issues of the comic book series Shuri.

My Lame Synopsis: Shuri, the smart, badass character we fell in love with in Black Panther has her own comic book!  Goodreads

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My Rating: 4 out of 5 stars

I decided with comic book issues being so short that I would review them together today. Which is my critique for comics, that they’re too short! I guess I’m just use to graphic novels and books that I feel like comics don’t give enough story. I absolutely love Shuri and it’s great reading about her, seeing her again. Same to be said about seeing Storm (not a spoiler). The third issue was the most exciting so far. The art is wonderful! It’s very cool reading more of Nnedi Okorafor in a different medium. I can’t wait to continue to see where the story goes and see what other characters are brought in too.

As always, thanks for reading!

Sarah<3<3

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Down The TBR Hole #62

Good hello, friends! Happy Monday. You know what gives me the most anxiety? Not knowing what’s going on for work. Therefore, you could probably guess that during Covid-19, I’ve been pretty anxious. I may not get paid for my blog but it does offer routine and a bit of stability, which helps.


Down The TBR Hole was originally created by Lost In A Story and the lovely logo!

Anyway, it works like this:

  • Go to your goodreads to-read shelf.
  • Order on ascending date added.
  • Take the first 5 (or 10 if you’re feeling adventurous) books
  • Read the synopses of the books
  • Decide: keep it or should it go?

Let’s Just Jump Into It!



1. My Week With the Bad Boy by Kennedy Fox

During 2017 when I added these books, it was definitely when I was looking for new adult romances. The title sounds so lame but of all these books this one has the highest rating on Goodreads. Maybe I need a classic adult romance about a fuckboy in my life. Keep for now!  Goodreads

Judgement: Keep

2. Ash by Malinda Lo

I love this cover. I actually recreated it last year for a readathon challenge. I don’t remember which one at the moment, oh well! I don’t remember what it’s about, ballet, I think? -Oh! Right! It’s a cinderella retelling, keep! Goodreads

Judgement: Keep

3. The Professional by Kresley Cole

I don’t remember the synopsis at all, maybe I didn’t even know it. -Dang it! I’m still torn if I want to keep it or not. That’s solely based on the synopsis saying, “feisty redhead”. I want to read it because redhead, but I don’t like the word ‘feisty’ because it’s just a stupid stereotype for redheads. Goodreads

Judgement: Keep?

4. Ever The Brave by Erin Summerill

I don’t usually include sequels if I haven’t read the first book yet, but I decided to include this one because I literally added it because of the cover. Both covers for this one and the first book, I love so much. But I’m going to remove it until I finally get around to the first book. Then decide if I want to continue the series of not.  Goodreads

Judgement: Go

5. Royally Screwed by Emma Chase

I love this title! It makes me giggle like a teenager. Is that enough reason to keep it? It is for me! Haha! Goodreads

Judgement: Keep


As always, thanks for reading!

Sarah<3<3

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Fibro Friday: Showing Up For Yourself ~ 6/26/2020

Good hello, friends! Happy Friday. I had a really hard time staying awake this morning so here I am, late with my blog post. Better late than never! Although cover-19 has had it’s own struggles and of course, my fibro. I’m really proud of myself for how consistent I have been with posting Monday-Friday on here. Which leads me into today’s post about showing up for yourself. I found a helpful post on The Mighty that I used for a guide for today’s post.

I’ve been thinking this for a long time, especially after watching the recent Queer Eye season when Karamo talked about that showing up for yourself is part of being an adult. I know it’s not easy to do daily. I actually wouldn’t remind doing it daily but monthly or weekly; start small. We all struggle be that may depression, chronic pain, anxiety, or even a combo of them or more. But I can tell you right now that it has helped me be a happier person overall. I’m by no means perfect at it, but I think it wouldn’t do any of us justice if I don’t share.

Ways to Show Up for Yourself


-Commit to habits, practices, routines and rituals that are good for your well-being – even when you don’t want to. Especially when you don’t want to. I give myself two passes before I make myself do something. I have a shower every night because it helps my back pain, but if my hand is hurting too much to bare then I’ll shower in the morning. Or not letting dishes pile up. I have my two passes and that’s it or I’ll have dishes piled up all over the house.

-Allow yourself to feel a multitude of feelings without labelling it as wrong, bad or negative. Just like a Fibro Friday before where I talked about feelings being data.

-Practice listening to your needs and discovering different ways of meeting those needs. This is a great one. I can’t get much help when it comes to groceries and food prep because my dad needs so much care. So I can get someone to help apply cream to ease my pain so I’ll be able to make my food myself.

-Practice self-forgiveness; for not being perfect, for forgetting, for your past, for what you don’t know, and for getting “off- track” sometimes. Need I say more? If I’m not able to get gas for the car or not put my laundry away. Or oops, I just watched 6 hours of Netflix. Tomorrow is a new day, I forgive myself and try again tomorrow.

-Let yourself start again, over and over, as often as needed. I truly think this is why I still blog. When I started blogging I had a hell of a time staying consistent but I kept at it, kept starting over.

-Take care of your basic needs: stay hydrated, get enough sleep, move your, body, and eat plentifully. I realized it’s just as important for me to take care of myself, especially my basic needs that is why if I miss my evening shower I have it in the morning. The first step to feeling better is feeling clean.

-Give yourself permission to rest, to take break, and to have down time. This is also why I don’t get upset if I don’t get all I wanted to do in a day or week for that matter. Only through rest is my pain manageable to allow me to do what I need to.

-Spend quality time with yourself: reading, writing, creating and getting to know who you are underneath who you think you should be. You know what I needed to do before I could allow myself to get to know myself? No longer allow judgement. I enjoy what I enjoy like writing on here, reading physically, audiobooks (yes they count are reading), bullet journalling. Who would have thought I would be using spreadsheets to track my reading and using a bullet journal, not me. But I love it.

-Use a lens of curiosity and compassion with yourself as often as possible. This has helped guide me through making difficult decisions.

-Remind yourself that you are worthy of being shown up for as anyone else in life. Make yourself a priority in your own life. When I was first diagnosed, it killed me to either push myself beyond what I was capable or watch someone I wish to help. I had to make myself a priority so I could show up for myself and my family. There’s not much beyond that I’m capable of and that’s okay. If I see someone who needs help I usually find someone else who is capable.

You are worthy.

You are worthy.

You are worthy.

You are worthy.

As always, thanks for reading!

Sarah<3<3

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Binti by Nnedi Okorafor: Book Review

Good hello, friends! Happy Thursday! Today is shots day and boy, do I need them. The last two days have been intense with my back pain.

My Lame Synopsis: Binti while living in Nigeria finds out she’s accepted to the best university in space, a first for her people. This is about her journey there. Goodreads

 

 

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My Rating: 4 out of 5 stars

Wow, in a such a short period of time I have read so much of Nnedi Okorafor’s works. She’s a new favourite author and I can’t wait to read more. Okorafor’s writing is so refreshing. In a few sentences she can create such intense tension that had me physically clutching.

Binti is one that I would love if it was longer! Look at it! it’s only 90 pages. Of course, I will continue the series as soon as I am able. Side note, I just love this cover. I legitimately could just look at it all day.

Despite is being so short there were some great and surprising twists and turns. Okorafor did not shy away from social commentary, either. Through Binti and her people’s traditions she was seen as an outsider where people openly stared and worse. Being so short, there’s not much to be side of other characters. Binti herself was a wonderful character who was so smart.

As always, thanks for reading!

Sarah<3<3

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Akata Witch by Nnedi Okorafor: Book Review

Good hello, friends! Happy Wednesday! What’s one thing you dream about over and over? I dream I can fly and I have been for years. If only I could do that in real life, haha. Onto the review!

My Lame Synopsis: Born in New York , but growing up in Nigeria, 12 year-old Sunny feels like an outsider from being born in the USA and being albino. She makes some friends and discovers the Leopard People. Goodreads

 

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My Rating: 3.5 out of 5 stars

I really love the magic system. What a creative and fresh twist in a more contemporary setting of Nigeria. Also, thought it was so special that one’s weakness is viewed as an asset to the Leopard People. For example, Sunny being albino and people bullying her for it. Sunny is a lovely character, young, innocent, but has cool abilities. I loved ChiChi, Sasha, and Orlu too, as side characters.

I wasn’t down with the side romance, there wasn’t enough story devoted to that plot line for it to bloom that I didn’t care for it. I did like the murder mystery aspect and how that sped up the plot. I’m very interested to see how the next book measures up. Sunny being only 12, the book overall felt like middle grade level, however, I have heard the books mature with her so I hope to see that when I continue the series.

As always, thanks for reading!

Sarah<3<3

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Queenie by Candice Carty-Williams: Book Re-Review

Good hello, friends! Happy Tuesday! Yesterday didn’t go how I thought where I spent most of the day feeling sick, but I’m better and I’m going to make some progress on my books now! I have read this before, review here, but I wanted to review it again.

My Lame Synopsis: Queenie is trying her hardest to fit into two worlds while on a break with her boyfriend Tom.  Goodreads

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My Rating: 4 out of 5 stars

When I first read this, if you didn’t read my first review, I loved it. I was blown away by Queenie and her struggle. At the time, I was mentally not doing well because I was still struggling with my break up. I think that is why I related to her so well. Now that I’m at a better place I can see what others complained about. A friend who also read Queenie felt she was very whiny, I guess I can see that. I saw it more through the audiobook. Maybe that was because of the narrator, maybe not. Some even have said Queenie is annoying. I don’t agree, but I understand where they’re coming from.

I still do appreciate the depth that Candice Carty-Williams went into with panic attacks. I’m happy to say that I haven’t had too many in the last couple years, but oh boy, do I remember them and they’re rough. Also, the generational relation of mental health, it’s no longer a taboo as it once was.

As always, thanks for reading!

Sarah<3<3

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Down The TBR Hole #61

Good hello, friends! I’m really hoping to get lots of reading done this week! I have two diverse audiobooks from the library, but nothing queer. I think I’m gonna reread Red, White & Royal Blue. For now, to make me feel better about not reading anything queer yet  for June, I’m pretending Jane Eyre’s friend Helen Burns and her were young lovers. They said they loved each other enough! Haha.


Down The TBR Hole was originally created by Lost In A Story and the lovely logo!

Anyway, it works like this:

  • Go to your goodreads to-read shelf.
  • Order on ascending date added.
  • Take the first 5 (or 10 if you’re feeling adventurous) books
  • Read the synopses of the books
  • Decide: keep it or should it go?

Let’s Just Jump Into It!



1. Her Name in The Sky by Kelly Quindlen

Holy Hanna, this is a f/f! Duh, I need to keep this because we need to support them! And because there’s so few I’m going to keep and read as many as I can get my hands on. The cover is also really cute too! Goodreads

Judgement: Keep

2. The Edge of Never by J.A. Redmerski

This is actually currently sitting on my book cart. I definitely going to get to it soon! Hopefully! No idea what it’s about. What’s new? Haha. Goodreads

Judgement: Keep

3. The Changeling by Victor LaValle

I believe I added this because it’s one of my favourite myths is the changeling and this was a different, more diverse telling, instead of the Scottish. Nothing against Scottish, I am Scottish, haha. But I wanted to discover more diverse stories of one of my favourite myths. Also, look at the cover! Goodreads

Judgement: Keep

4. The Power by Naomi Alderman

I have this somewhere, I think, I could have donated it. I’m not sure! I’m kind of curious more about this because of the reviews of this one and Vox by Christina Dalcher. I think I would have to read and compare them. For fun, of course! Funny how I lost interest and gained it back and partly because of another book! Goodreads

Judgement: Keep

5. Vicious by L.J. Shen

Another one, I think I’m gonna to keep. I’ve heard she’s one of the best contemporary romance writers so I definitely want to give her a try. So, of course, I have to read it and form my own opinion! Goodreads

Judgement: Keep


As always, thanks for reading!

Sarah<3<3

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